Whenever I post "away messages" on instant messenger, sometimes they actually give reference to my whereabouts, but more often than not, I insert a random lyric or whatever thought is presently running through my mind. Today, it was this,

Don't ever underestimate your heart-breaking capabilities.

Though this may have been inspired by my B, I didn't mean to necessarily direct it at him. And since him and I have never talked about my feelings since that lonely instance in November, I was a little caught off guard by the away message HE posted.

Yeah, it was a mistake, I do regret it and I don't regret much in my life...but this I do! So please just let it go!

Now I'm not one to assume that things are always about me, but I am fairly certain this is; and if so, he is surely referencing our drunken rendezvous a few months back.

Of course I cannot respond, but if I could, it would go something like this.

B, believe it or not, I don't live with regrets, either. Of course there are the rare few events in our lives that we undoubtedly would take back and do over if we could, but in general, I feel that to regret something is to admit that it was a part of your life that you wasted. And who wants to look back on a wasted life? In any case, you are certainly not one of the things I regret. That night is not something I will look back on with regret and shame, nor do I think it was a mistake. If there is anything about this situation that I regret, it's the thing that was completely out of my control and that is, falling for you in the first place-- only because it never materialized into something and all that came from it was heartbreak on my end. But I don't think it's plausible to think that I could ever regret anything having to do with you. And so I hope I haven't become your life's only regret.