I got back on the treadmill tonight for the first time in a couple weeks. Felt good, and I managed to stay on for 30 minutes! Now that is something I haven't been able to accomplish (or haven't been motivated to) in a really long time. And the best part is, after 30, I really got warmed up and could have easily gone another 10. I would have, but I was using the gym at my apt complex, and another couple walked in and I felt kind of awkward, so when my time was up, I let them have free reign of the place. But hey, it's okay! I walked/ran for 30 minutes today and I feel awesome.

Here are my goals for the next two weeks:

-90 minutes of cardio per week
-keep track on my newly made excel spreadsheet of my calorie/fat/carb, etc. intake
-take measurements every Wednesday night

I'll update with my numbers and such in two weeks-- hopefully I'll have some good news!

I haven't written in several days because I haven't found the energy. Life has been so messed up these last few weeks. Never in my life have I felt so messed up, confused, depressed, and angry. How am I coping with it all? Not real well.

This past Saturday night, my aunt Mildred passed away, exactly a month after my grandfather left us. I can't begin to describe how tragic it is to lose two of the most important people in your life in the matter of a few weeks, especially after having never really lost anyone close to you before.

I'll be back soon, hopefully, once I'm able to make some sense out of the mess that is my life at the moment.