I'd like to make myself believe that planet earth turns slowly

I haven't written in a month... Can that be right?? I suppose so. My life is just a whirlwind of thoughts, decisions, and varying emotions--an entire spectrum of them. In a few, summarized words, here is my basic thought process of the past month.

• I'm struggling to get back on the ball with my exercising and healthy eating. I've been wondering why this summer was so much more difficult than last. The conclusion I've come to that seems to make the most since is this: I heard one of those doctors on TV (I think Dr. Oz?) mention that sometimes we use food to fill a void in our lives, and I 100% believe that to be true, at least for me. Last summer when I was on this incredible upswing and lost 10-15 lbs, I just felt better overall. I had a great time with my friends and didn't care that I was single. This summer, the complete opposite has been true, and I'm afraid I let food comfort me in place of the human interaction I so crave and that has been absent these past few months. So what I've decided is this. Now that I'm aware of why, (thanks, Dr!) I can work that much harder on getting better. Plus, I also considered the fact that if I met a great boy now, anyway, I'd be too unhappy with myself to let said boy really get close. So if I can spend the next 4-ish months working on ME, maybe life will reward me with a cute one :)
  
• An additional note on my lack-of-a-boy situation: I've also decided that I'm happier being single than being in a relationship with the wrong guy. Even the wrong ones are hard to leave once you get attached.
  
• Depending on where life takes me in the next couple years, I'm seriously considering a big move. Chicago is right at the top of my list. Although I've yet to visit there, Chicago has always called out to me in a certain way. It's just one of those things in life that feels right, even if I can't explain it. My plan is to make a trip there soon, and go from there. I'm hoping to graduate with my Bachelor's in approx. 2 years, making it a great time for a big change. I'm chicken, though, and leaving Cleveland would be one of the most difficult choices of my life--I didn't grow up here but it has totally become my home over the past 8 years.

More thoughts to come... but bedtime is now and I must retire for the evening. 'Night!